Dying to Know

I'm dying to know how [s]he touches you (don't get mad at me for asking) The sex is so much better when you're mad at me But then you called again/To tell me how you're gonna blow my best friend Uncomfortable silence again Before I hung up the phone all I could hear/Was the dial tone ring in my ear And I never wanna say goodbye/But...you make it hard to be faithful And [you] promised everything under the sun I can't stay sober...If it's over If there's one memory I don't want to lose that time at the mall. You and me in the dressing room, (saying how you) loved the taste of my oh oh oh.

This Is Not For You
I search for comfort and I find it where I've found it many times before.
It's sickening how comforting the privacy of the mind can be.
Am I origami, folded up and just pretend?
I'm only here in background.
[But] I'm my own movie star.
I was lying with my eyes about adultery...sin.
I'd say it aloud but I'm not allowed.
(i loved you...while he was in you...in the shower)
And your erotic, wet, atomic eyes keep reoccuring in my mind. Do me a favour, please, and touch your lips to mine...
I don't kiss and tell, [but] I'll tell you after I've betrayed you.
Well, I kind of sort of knew what was going to happen.
It's false behind the dirty talk, the dirty sheets, the sexy walk.
Inspire me 'cause if you don't I think I'll dissipate to dust.
I promise not to try to fuck with your mind.
(if i were to wonder...out loud...would it make you...turn away?)
I am fine, just a little broken up.
"I'm all right," I tell myself twice.
I know I don't need to stay awake.
I heard a bang...and stars collided.
[I] adjusted my pants as my face turns to red...
Without you here, I feel my fear.
I feel the hurt, so physical.
I'm still here waiting for you.
Ok[ay], I'm boring you.
No, I don't want you to go.
I'm not gonna to let you go this time.
[Now] I'm alone for the first time.
I've GOT to talk to you...
[I] Want to keep you from breaking.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

fall awake and die

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

 

fall awake and die

 

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

 

I am not afraid to keep on living.  I am not afraid to walk this world alone.  (Or dead.)

Sometimes I think I'll die alone, I'd think I'd love to die alone

 

Life is but a dream for the dead

 

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

 

He doesn't have many friends as they are face down and bloated.

 

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

 

Tell me I'm an angel, [I’ll] take this to my grave.

 

Hello Angel, tell me where are you?  Tell me where we go from here?

 

We'll shoot back holy water like cheap whiskey.   

Well I lie and I'm easy all of the time but I'm never sure why…

[But] I will not kiss you.

 

Don't stop if I fall and don't look back.

 

They could care less as long as someone'll bleed.

 

I hear you've been bleeding.

 

And did you come to stare or wash away the blood?

And you can't touch my brother and you can't keep my friends and we're not working out…

 

You said we're not celebrities, we spark and fade

Who walks among the famous living dead?

So go on live your life.  But I miss you more than I did yesterday

 

"I don't love you like I did…Yesterday"

 

Have you heard the news that you're dead?

Right now they're building a coffin your size

And I just want you for my own more than you could ever know.

And, oh I-- I know a place--Where no one is likely to pass--Oh, you don't care if it's late--And you don't care if you're lost

I'm the one that you loathe you can watch me corrode like a beast in repose

'Cause I love all the poison

 

If this is what you want, then fire at will

 

Before I pull this trigger, your eyes vacant and stained...

 

And as the fragments of my skull begin to…Fall on your tongue like pixie dust just think happy thoughts.

 

All I'm asking for is a thousand bodies piled up

Prime directive—Exterminate the whole fuckin’ race

 

It isn't that much fun, staring down a loaded gun.

 

And we'll all dance alone to the tune of your death.  We'll love again, we'll laugh again…And it's better off this way.

 

Kick my brains round the floor

 

I wanna see what your insides look like.  I bet you're not fucking pretty on the inside

 

I'd end my days with you in a hail of bullets.

 

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

 

She's got something else in mind…[Like] check[ing] into the Hotel Bella Muerte.

 

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

 

I remember now…in my arms she dies.

Sometimes I get the feeling she's watching over me

How could you cry for me?

Cause I don't feel bad about it

 

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

 

You might wake up and notice you're someone you're not

 

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

 

Do you remember that day when we met?  You told me this gets harder…

 

They stared us down when we met in the emergency room and in our beds, I could hear you breathe with help from cold machines…

 

You're just a sad song with nothing to say about a life long wait for a hospital stay.

 

The doctors and the nurses they adore me so, but it's really quite alarming cause I'm such an awful…

 

Can we pretend to leave and then we'll meet again…when both our cars collide?

 

But you really need to listen to me...

Not exactly poetry...but a picture IS worth a thousand words.

Hatred strips her and leaves her naked.

Hatred fuels my blood, I'll burn y[ou] down.

Now look at the world and see how the humans bleed.  As I sit up here and wonder 'bout how you sold your mind, body and soul.

Now take a trip with me but don't be surprised when things aren't what they seem.

Don't you try to stop me, it's a place you'll never know.  Don't try to judge or take shots at me, I'll never let you seize control.

Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?

I can't regret, can't escape decisions made for me, no control.

Don't go to sleep tonight, darling, hold me in your arms.  These will be our final days and I can't let go.

So far forever now alone, a greater punishment on me has been imposed.

You're cracked, so just remember, I'm not your enemy; I don't deserve to fall this way.

Nobody tells me all the reasons we're here. I have my weapons so there's nothing to fear.

lyrics provided by Avenged Sevenfold.  all other rights reserved.  copyright 2006.

life
watching her friends
slowly growing and dying
she senses relief


copyright 2006. all rights reserved.

grey matter
light and dark swirling
like chocolate into milk
the line becomes blurred


copyright 2006. all rights reserved.

i got your love letters. i threw them all away. and [now] i hear you think that i'm crazy.

"hey can you talk a little louder? i don't think my heart is broken enough."

it takes all of my strength to be stable, and i force your insults under the table...'cause i am not a force to be reckoned with.

[i'm] holdin' on to somethin' that's keepin' me from jumpin', [i'm] so afraid to go in alone.

love doesn't hurt, so i know i'm not falling in love, i'm just falling to pieces.

so i'm taking these pills to fill up my soul and i'm drinking them down with cheap alcohol.

melancholy and cool, kind of bittersweet...i'm echoing all your philosophies.

don't give me choices 'cause i can't decide, my mind is soaked in words. i've come to terms with all my insecurities.

i feel like i'm naked in front of the crowd 'cause these words are my diary screaming out loud, and i know that you'll use them however you want to.

[and] a lonely song of freedom rings in hope of someone listening.


lyrics courtesy of anna nalick. all other rights reserved. copyright 2006.

Things He Mighta Shoulda Said/Thought During Their Relationship
She said she loved me, but she had somewhere to go.

But she’s touching his chest now, he takes off her dress now.

And someone will drive her around down the same streets that I did.

Never thought I'd let a rumor ruin my moonlight.

Don't you put me on the back burner.

And[ie], you're a star...in nobody's eyes but mine.

I look at you and smile because I'm fine.

If I had a chance would you let me know?

The time is now...Cause this might be your last chance.

We were just a good thing, we were such a good thing.

I believe in you and me. I'm coming to find you.

No sex, no drugs, no life, no love.

Can't you see it's hurting me?

Without her it's not the same.

We could be friends and I promise that it won't get bad.


lyrics courtesy of the killers. all other rights reserved. copyright 2006

you
i tried to be honest.
i tried to tell the truth.
i tried to be myself.
but i only ended up being hurt by you.

i tried to pretend.
i tried to lie.
i tried to fit in/
but i only ended up being hurt by you.

i tried to forgive.
i tried to sympathize.
i tried to understand.
but i only ended up being hurt by you.

when you were honest,
you were brutal.
when you were truthful,
you were brutal.
when you hurt me,
i died inside.

no longer am i able to trust.
no longer am i able to be honest.
no longer am i able to love you.

i am only capable of what i have been shown,
what i have been taught.
you taught me many things.
to lie.
to hate.
to hurt.

you showed me to hate myself.
you showed me that i am never good enough.
you showed me all my flaws,
but gave no solution to fix them.

now i am alone.
no one to love me.
no one to hold me.
no one to comfort me.
no one to show me that i am worthwhile.

the evil voice inside my head,
the one that you implanted in there,
awakens me from me innocence
and i drown in everything i am not.

copyright 2006. all rights reserved.